I wanted to try
I wanted to make
This world a better place
Yes, I understood, to do that, I would have to travel dark and terrible tunnels
Of course, I knew, that to succeed, others must fail, others would surely fall.
“Life changing,” is what the recruiter spelled in that initial meeting...
and I bought the bait…excited to do so at that, to be a hero, to change the world, to let freedom ring, through the valleys of atrocity, to the shores of oppression…we cheered when each flag fell, when power was returned
but, no one ever said how life changing this all would be
Each and every morning—when loud sounds stir-
Unsure of surroundings—of mission—of faces of family and friends-
Unaware—the war’s been won—finding fist formed, trembling, in a half-sleeping hand, staring down at a woman that loves you unrequited…
Snapping, at pin-tinged words—that provoke a bouquet of chastising gleams, from those who always told others how well they knew who you are and what kind of man rests inside—yet that was a different lifetime entirely—and now, all you want, is
For someone to save you
From those seeds planted
Deep within…seeds that continue to green, despite all the psychological weedkillers stirred about...
All you need is to see the flag, unfurled and proudly traveling it’s fabric’s length—spanning much, much further distances than a mere cloth could possibly transmit- and you salute, every time, regardless of where or when...
Honor and duty, you plod along, until you get your next directive, hoped for, under the guise of a civilian blanket, one that cannot keep your turning body warm at night—
you pray that a new assignment will take you far from this strangest land of all—
you’ve always done what’s been told—
As all good soldiers do—
But at ease, is something you fear you no longer can do
Obviously not a celebratory piece, just not how my minds wired lately, but still wanted to take part in the Memorial Day celebration over at D’Verse, and thought an artistically, I hope, filtered informational piece about the tragedies of our nation’s heroes suffer upon their return home, how they leave their family as Person A but if they are so lucky to come back at all, they almost always return as Person Z, whether they speak of the differences or not, they see it, and in some way or another, they know things are not how they vaguely remember things, that something has changed.
I know several people, that have served and they’ve all been very candid about their re-acclamation. Each of them speaks as to how the world does seem reshaped, yet they just don’t know how or why. They all seem to be transitioning adequately, yet do speak of having to seek counseling, wake up in cold sweats, unknowing where they are, and yes, nightmares always seem to part of the conversation.
The one that has the hardest time is one that’s just returned home this past year after 10 years of deployment, and he’s told me that while the beer tastes much better being back home, he does feel like he’s still having to look over his shoulder at all times, amongst many other tragic aftertastes. The worst though, has to be his 12 year old son, treating him as if he’s just another stranger, polite, yet distanced. He says how he would look forward to getting new photos, and how he’d use them to help stay grounded while away, but when he first reached out to hug him, the child merely said hello and went to shake his hand. His doctor says it might take some time, for all parties to readjust. And they all are fine with that, or so they say. But I believe them, yet I wonder, should transitioning adequately be okay at all.
My personal feeling is that the Governments of this world truly need to get their priorities in shape. They need to come up with better solutions than simply sending their youth out into combat, where whether a single shot is ever fired or not, they become altered.
Protecting one’s greatest assets, life and freedom, should always be the main priority, and obviously military operations will be a part in this defense, yet it would be nice if the system at hand is altered somewhat more than it already is, to help our brave heroes transition as seamlessly as possible, without fear of what may be next.
Obviously you tread into neuroscience, and the mind is a funny beast, very difficult to pin down in entirety, but more science, more research, as I’ve heard it is, should continuously to be, done.
The families of those who do not return, as well as of those of wounded veterans, which I use the term wounded in it’s broadest scope, need to be taken care of better than perhaps they already are. The heroes should be remembered and praised for their courage and their unselfish acts of sacrifice, for it all is a sacrifice, is it not?
Obviously I didn’t do this conversation justice, as there’s just so much more territory to go down. Yet I feel I got down the gist of the message I wanted to get out, and only hope it has been adequately displayed. So, this is just something a bit heavier to mull over as we all eat our fruit salads and barbeque this afternoon. As Decoration Day, as this holiday was originally named, is supposed to be for remembering those servicemen and women that have died. But death, is that not such a subjective term, and in such, I think our definitions should be expanded somewhat.