The
weight of your sins
Depress
deep upon
The
spine—forever
Herniating
the
Conversations
Ever
to remain
Unaligned
The
balance of forgiveness
entrenches
within—the winding
scars
that become the emphatic
provocation—of
disturbances wrestling
strong
inside—entombed, ensnarled amongst
the
covetous coil incubating persistently—still
burdening
the landscape with each forlorn promise
ever
told—and while the delusion of honor still remains—
the
reality permeates this seducing dream—never permitting
acknowledgements
their chance to speak—blindly working towards
some
unattainable dream, while the Iscariot inside arrests and writhes
Shards
of a diluted elegy, broker
silently
prides ascent,
from
whence, out
of
the bubbling hate—
an
ill-crossed path, once diluted
by
perfumeries and colored specks, now
fostering
forward the injective course,
where
disillusionment haunts the presence
of
this intrinsic bliss-filled knot—and in so,
blindsided
it becomes, unwittingly tainting the
vitriol
surrounding the stained-glass chambers
of
the post-apocalyptic promulgation of a soul—
dispossessed,
frayed and suddenly overwhelmed by the
sensations
of a once prominent, yet now redacted and hollow
version
of what we used to caress so close….
Dark
prognostications send antagonistic reminders,
of
how the pretty ignorance will shrivel, as does the petal,
withering
atop the potting soil, fragrant to a degree, yet
decaying
consistently
Atone
we must
but
even then,
there
is a point
where
even
confessionals
themselves
break
down and
cry
for the charcoal
shaded
soul, destined,
only
to oblige the gravitational
flagrancies
of directionality, forever
encouraged
to jaunt forward, only to never
truly
be awakened from the sleep perdition keeps,
inching
unnoticeably toward the ensnaring captivity
that
binds one to the annexes of paralysis, that torturous road
that
corrals the far beyond repaired, to the pitiless posture found
in
the beds of stone—the writhing signature distinct to southern sleep
Depression
gnaws at the atrophied sinew—
for
what has occurred, may be covered thick and dense
yet
never is the collateral fully removed—always remaining, tainting every pleasant
memory, enhancing those nightmares to which are tightly clutched…for the remnants,
the residuals of a once sinful self, ever has a way of reinventing the torture
we inflict upon ourselves
Can't escape the past everything we do whether tiny or vast will have some sort of kickback, and the flack surely causes the seams to crack. Our hardest critic is usually ourselves as well, as over and over again we ring that bell. The ending was truly great, as such is our fate.
ReplyDeleteWow, this is imho one of your best, potent and emotionally stirring, touching on many things we feel but find hard to touch in the light of day. Magnificent.
ReplyDeleteguilt is a heavy burden and your poem made me think of the monks in the middle age that tortured themselves cause they felt the weight hard upon them
ReplyDeletedude...some wicked quick rhyme going on in this...right from the get go...the intro is pretty tight...the torture we inflict on ourselves...some def truth in that as well...
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ReplyDeletethats a wicked opening stanza fred . . . sets the scene skillfully . . . i feel drawn into the deep with this piece . . . a willing dunkee!
on the stool
dipping . . .
dark is the heart
Po lets the light in huh?
clinical reading fred . . .
the clammy whisper snags
the imagination
further still!
Excellent imagery. Well done.
ReplyDeleteThe last stanza is the one that really strikes me...how the collateral from depression is never quite removed, always remains in some form awaiting its chance to torture a person another day in perhaps a new form. Not a very optimistic outlook, but I believe this to be true! A strong write, Fred. You stretch me.
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ReplyDeletewhere even
confessionals
themselves
break down and
cry for the charcoal
shaded soul,
You write so well of depression and guilt - we have a hard time of shades of grey. k.
This sounds like the nasty cycle of depression -- coming from beating up oneself over a pass deed. Over and over, the torture seems never enough, coloring everything dark, making it hard to be happy even when something good happens. You really drew the monster here.
ReplyDeleteDark, rich in description, deeply contemplative. And your end stanza is an amazing gripping finale.
ReplyDeleteReally amazing twists and turns of words, phrases. That beginning paragraph was perfect, and loved the phrase "charcoal shaded soul" Wonderful write!
ReplyDeleteI love the way this ebbs and flows--its like listening to someone think out loud, or a teaching from a shaman, perhaps, invoking, dissecting, finally accepting the lot of humans, to always hurt themselves most. Great reading, also.
ReplyDeleteA great write, Fred.
ReplyDeletereal strong, gritty imagery in this one, Fred... love our 'writhing signature'... oh yeah
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