Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Gray

It’s a rainy and downright miserable day.  

The sky, draped in parameters of the grayest quays, decides to travel slower than design would abdicate.  Shades of the fallen emanate from beyond. There is a somber eloquence that, at times, can have its charm.  However, rarely does the journey take that long.  Smoked inside, to avoid the frazzled delicacies it denotes upon, our irrationality merges with the impatience birthed from within.  Cataloging our every movement, as if the walls become the audience, to the spectacle we put on.  

Forever we languish, in the sorrow of the subtle sound, and wait for its crescendo to paint its song.  Rumbling from the overpass, on most days magnified by the swift echoes it instills upon, today shadowed by the cataclysmic sacrifice gray skies offer on, days that mire in contemplative thoughts.  We rue the sprite that casts this deplorability upon. 

Ceramic vases, jars of clay, born hollow, but made that way. 

Flowers insert into voids, flourish when droplets caress joy.  Emotions of the wind, when soft, a wafting passes through.  It connects to nasal passageways, spells aromatic poems into the fragile arms of pawns.  Delight we take, from such minute epiphanies; from the molecular embankments we're gladly stranded upon.  It is a delight that is torn asunder, as winged worlds collide in jagged flaunts of plunder.  To which the spiders cry, their bed has been split, their trellis scattered and left to drift.  One quick look back, ill afforded, yet in the tear, drooling from the arachnid's eye, a world remains through the trail it defines.  Goodbyes are sent from midair, ensuring it jumps before the flowers wilt in despair.  Connecting to petals firm and quick, posturing their will upon their fragrant lips.  Nothing but a fragment remains, which is all the will’s become, lost forever in a moment without sun. 

Filaments cemented down, burrowing teeth into weathered gums, a travesty of solitude has such become.  Yet in times of weakening, war-torn stories quickly absorb. The atmospheric pressure folds, bending in directions we never would’ve thoughtfully supposed.  Our hours weigh upon us, like the relegated wisdom of a traffic officer, amidst broken steel, gridlock and the vulgarities they spawn. Only puddles, large and round, small and square to splash.  Only puddles, composed of, gelatin, or so is the story the mind disclosed.  Black and Blue, flashing signals strong and bright, wishing he was in between a street fight, between the world's deadliest gangs.  Would've been easier to stomach, easier to get through.

A return, to the gray skyline, offers insightful adequacy.

Graphite shards shade us, outline our aura with their silver tongues.  Commiserating, mingling in, fleeting shallow breaths begin. To the right are the brothels, of the unhinged incendiaries, waiting for the architecture to align.
A design lusted for, sought after since a plagued adolescence, spent despising the facades and the faces, of the everyday and the every one. Willing strength, they have, yearning for a bomb to end; to send the grandest smoke signal high, for all to read, all to see, to paint the clouds in char and ash.
So they saw the clouds, and basked in their unholiest of premonitions.  It was a dream unlike this: the precise angling of currents' flow, of a lightning strike, those incurrent surely felt. The bolt  draws the prawn to the surface, where safety nets look to control them.  It lures a bath-robed army, out from their security blanket, and into the moistened night, powerless, watching as the furies danced with the embers they create; two-step, then waltz, upon every ounce of ownership the outcasts keep.

In the aftermath, the bugs still linger, keen eyes peeled,as a life of misery, a world of dismay, is summated, by the collection baskets, the particulates of biographies scorn, laying destitute, for contemptuous eyes and jaded hearts, of the deliberating anti-man, to copulate amongst the crags and scabs of ragged and weary women and men.

The clouds are not moving like they often do. 

The clouds are dark and surrounding.  
The wind is heavy and swift.
It escapes the head, only to travel back around, perhaps through time, waiting for the off-guard peculiarity you will, someday be blinded by.


The arch of rumbling seems to arise someplace to the south. 
Either the worst is over, or the wickedest has yet to come.

Sparklers lift the veil of night, illuminating the gravest rhymes superimposed upon the darkest of soliloquies.


  Sheltering the shadows, as to not give false notion, or to encourage encored performances. The verisimilitude is staggering. The battery seems to extend forever.

Forever is an exaggeration.  

Nothing can sustain such an appetite.  
No force is built to survive.  
The mourning shall come.  
The tides will shift.  
Hairs will part again.


There will be much recovery.  Stories will not grow periods in their sleep. The mortician may be smiling as dollar signs echo, but restoration will be a job incurred by all.

All the trees will grow new leaves. 
The unfortunate collected, reused in the creative pursuit of something novel, perhaps essential to persistence. 
All the streets will be swept.  All the arterial interference will be cleared.


Some new political scenario shall distract those affected.
Focus will adapt
Current commotions shall become carpet rides, for one and all.


And all will be forgotten, perhaps recalled in memoir, maybe gospel story, all the activity, all the attention this night has spawned, all forgotten, as if the dismal tribulations of a devastating scourge never occurred, dancing children will placate posters, teenage first-love shall enter the second act, blossoming the third with high definition denouement and diligently constructed charm in the front and rear view.  


However:

All will be remembered:
For those injured.
For those forced to bury a friend, a brother
For those forced to part ways with a lover
For those who arduously led the clean up
For those living still in shelters
For those with no one that gets them
For those with problems stemming much earlier
For those....
  A pretty picture will not release them.


   The burdens they feel will still weigh upon them. 


It’s for the soldiers of normalcy,
To which the decree of politeness swear. 
Don’t discuss and it’s like it never happened.  
That will be the chorus, 
and after all, right or wrong,
 No one really remembers the refrain.

Then there is the other side, the opposing view.  That we need those who push and motivate those incapable, or in a positioning fetal to where they should be.  These sorts encourage prosperity.  They foster growth.  Yet tactfulness is often what they lack.  Therefore they become the motivating force, but not as they intended.  (Question:

What's the best way to stop a war between two dominating factions?

Answer:  Unify them with hatred.  Create an enemy, so strong, so powerful, so universally unbecoming, a force that threatens both factions.  Use their hatred as the unifying thread.  Distract them.  Force a truce.
Become the martyr.
Unify.

And to think, the weatherman projected a wonderful summers eve.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Mascar(aid)


Weeks merge
Convergent days a component, comprised of
Hour’s blood
Here and there, now and then
Every month it starts again
Lingering is
A cramping
Exposition
Of time

Years smeared across
A calendar- a sustaining void
Seconds precious few
Blonde, bruised
Forever Blue
Tokens of exclamation
Bludgeoned
Into

As premature as my claims may seem
A coward’s image I’ve begun to see
Like mascara to the cloth I run from what could be

Monday, June 20, 2011

Antique Ink


Rags of antiquity
Brown stained fragments
Of some other time, some other world
Genuflecting, in some ancient’s honor
As calligraphy embraces descendant’s hand

Tattered, torn in parts,
A different way of life it was,
Musty scent from where the aged papers spent,
Its vagrant years,
As forgotten words,
Suppressed through neglect,
A voice repressed,
By motions since,

Yet, today, this afternoon,
Reunion from a world unknown,
Page upon page, word upon word,
I noticed the way you crossed your t’s & the positioning of the dot above your I’s; then realized your ink lay in a way, not too estranged from mine. 

And through the dusty attic window, outdated for an era or so, must be back in vogue, as I firmly recall, seeing such a design, prominently displayed, on the showroom floor, shifting clouds could have been seen, if my eyes ever chose to rest, if they had averted from this diary that I read.

I noticed, no matter how much things have altered, when it comes to matters of the heart, when it comes to love, not much has changed at all.

And it’s eerie for me,
To find you and I,
Are strangely connected,
In ways,
Apart from DNA.



Sunday, June 19, 2011

Impending


Beneath scarf and tie,
Bristling brush,
I’m sensing your push,

Whispering unto nape,
Shiver and shake
I sense the smell you make,

Caressing sweetly,
Over bruises deep,
I sense the moisture seep,

Massages, kneading,
Tissues torn and dry,
I sense your lies,

I feel the signals,
Issuing their warning,

I sense the sounds,
The restlessness of morning,

I read the motion,
Of waves collapsing,

I hear the warmth,
Beneath your eyes

All lies, all deceptions,
Carefully crafted superficiality,
Entwined with intentions, tailor made décor,
Beneath the softness, lays a jagged floor

Impending,
Through the silence, in the paint,
The forest comes alive, the foliage wakes,
Moving are its branches; broken is the trail,
No time for sorrow; no chance to fail,
Impending doom will swallow,
As the night grows hollow,

Dreams laced with paper cuts
Nightmares infused with trust

An Intersect


Like lost angels,
Falling from the sky,
Residing in the place,
They’ve all gone to die,

I’m in-between,
I’m in the crevice,

Sanctimony & temple lore,
I shall retrieve my broken promises,
When I arrive at Hell’s door,

I feel like I just broke my heart,
If I had a baseline,
I could gauge it from the start,

Fillings, stuffed & sewn,
I lost some balance,
When she came home,

Like a clown,
Directionless & alone,
I know the path I took,
Not by choice,
But from circumstantial looks,
Glances I could not take back,

Yet to see you, occupying this same space,
I wonder what difference your wisdom made,
And if your words, burrowed a hole,
For all those you had saved,

I never could’ve walked the path you paved,
Perhaps, in your case, the error’s clerical,
But for now, it appears we’ll be burning simultaneously,

I’ll now burn faster,
Ruing nothing from the life I led


Saturday, June 18, 2011

In the mind of a stranger ( A mind known so well)


Raise the curtain,
         Lift the veil,
When it comes to life,
Make it real,
         Strip it bare

Put away the glitter
Let down your hair
Burn the montages
You wish weren’t there
Return to
Me

One foot before the other
I know it hurts, I feel the scars
I also know, it’s going to get worse
Before this clarifies
But I’ll be your crutch; I’ll be your cane
I’ll try to make it the same again
Return
To me

Open those walls
Let in the air
A cool breeze
Amidst a warm summer’s eve
Purge away; exfoliate your fears
It can’t hurt you as long as I’m near
But first you must
Return to
Me

Take my hand
But don’t let go
Like you’ve grown accustomed to
I can help, this I know
But the mirror needs to shatter
Before the parts regrow
Drop the act; stop pretending
I know you’re still in there
But I first you must
Return
To me

This place bears no witness
To the niche we made
When you were Buffy
And I, your vampire
With an outfit I stole from school
And the black cape you gave to me
All I knew; all I know
 Don’t let go
Return
To
Me


Flashbacks flutter, back and forth
Between dire straits & a true north
They merge; they dissipate; they remain
They tell me I need to let you be
To let you sleep in the beds you unmade
To walk as far away I can from you
Before the damage destroy me too


Perhaps there’s wisdom in their words
But If I listened, tell me,
What kind of friend would I be?

Eventually a point may come
The point I more than fear
But first you must:

Raise the curtain,
         Lift the veil,
When it comes to life,
Make it real,
         Strip it bare
And return to me




Friday, June 17, 2011

Riot Act


And so it was…
…An incurable scourge…
         …Happed to make its stand…
…Upon our patch of soil…
              …In this once proud land…
Panic
Disorder
Chaotic Applause
Predilections Rise
In revolt of an unjust cause

Infamy
Atrocity
Tyrannical Pause
Insurrections beget
In defense of pawns

Protect
Fortify
Symbolic thaw
Volitions speak
Riot acts upon

Rigid
Static
Empirical scars
Elevations threaten
The way things were

Conflict
Discordance
Iniquity calls
Inflictions augment
The way things are

Collision
Fray
Cascades draw
Perditions whelm
In the support of man
…And so it was…
…Carnage crawled back into its depth…
…United was the common man…
…Deflecting treble …
 …Distracting spawn…
…With the will exhibited by all…
…Shielded from the shame of failure…
…Through which…
...A once desolate village…
…Became quite strong