Showing posts with label experience. Show all posts
Showing posts with label experience. Show all posts

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Getting Outside The Blocks Within


I’ve been searching for the perfect breath,
Yet too far many times, all I’ve discovered
Has been the intensity which congestion brings

Within.

I’m looking for the greatest role, to utilize my talents, to bring me close to a centered space, to stand still amongst the moving rush, yet, so far, even the extra slots are filled…

Without.

I’m passionate about many things, yet what good does passion bring, when the odds are stacked 

Out of favor.

The dreams are squelched, the rhythm's bent, disturbed like a selfish child, concerned only with his own self

Inside.

It’s enough to make you wish your dreams away, to some fields that reward success to those holding ethics and effort much higher than what is often considered by most

Self-Centered Partitions.

And to those that still believe in hope.  There is hope.  

Inside and then Out.

And to those still believing in knowledge. There is knowledge. and to those who not only have the capability to learn, yet also possess the ability to eagerly share these gifts to others. There is Community.

Outside and Within.

Distancing. Afar/near/close/Away. Skylines. Spectacles. Bravado in name alone. Restricting space between, communion is relevant once more.

Internal Mergers.

To gather the necessary crops, the reaper needs his sickle.
To till the mind, nurture requires many moments

Beyond what many seem to offer…(sometimes)

Love is a deadly word.  Vulnerability is feared less; yet, it would make sense, if one should claim the opposite.

External Vision.

Saturday, February 9, 2013

Telltale Signs of Existence


We each have our own telltale signs. These are signals and indicators, which we find useful in deciphering the world around us and to let others have some semblance of chance to uncovering what goes on behind the blinders of our minds.

Some signs are softly spoken while some scream in hues of vividness.  We need both types in our lives, and others need to find each when examining our canvas upon first and second approaches.

All things considered however, we need not dwell upon such codified terminology in words alone. In fact, it is often through truly experiencing the self itself, that we are able to, as individuals, understand ourselves completely.  And once we are blessed to know ourselves, we then, can share of it to those who wish to take part in our existence.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Of Piety and Penumbra

Stu McPherson is hosting Poetics over at D'Verse tonight, where he presents a well-written, and very interesting theme for us all to pursue.  This theme is that of Beautiful Sadness, the unexplainable incongruity that sometimes presents itself when experiencing items of inspiration, beauty and pure art, yet, it is here that you are thusly inspired in way you never could have imagined, where emotions, and systems of sadness etc. overtake you in a very surprising manner.

I wasn't really sure how I would personally tackle this theme, as, while being very open to numerous interpretations, I thought it important to truly peel back the layers within and try to find such an instance to draw upon, as I believe everyone experiences this type of sensation many times throughout their lives, and I knew I had done just that, so the real project for me, was connecting to that moment.  I was having difficulty for a while, but then this memory was recalled that I felt fit the theme perfectly.  It was many years ago, when I went to church with my mother, who happened to have been serving as a Eucharistic Minister that mass, and in so doing, she had to arrive a good twenty minutes prior to the start of mass.  So I sat in the pews and would do like I'd done many times before, stare intently upon the magnificent stained glass artistry that were in full display on each of the church walls.  This particular time, instead of simply appreciating the artwork and taking in the scenes depicted there, I was overtaken by a sadness, one that I never truly did understand, yet, it wasn't the type of sadness that keeps you in bed for days on end, it was different and that's the best I can do to explain it here.   Well, that's the backstory, hope you enjoy.

After reading the piece, make sure you head on over to D'Verse, read Stu's excellent article, and then most certainly dive right in to all the pieces linked up to the site by all the amazingly talented poets that often participate in the D'verse poetic community.  And, as always, if the inspiration strikes you, by all means go ahead and compose your own piece, and then link it up to D'verse for all to share in your creation.  Cheers.






The rhythmic patter dictates impetus
as eyes scan each brightly colored
platelet, donated for all to bear witness to its both, as I’ve since learned, piety and penumbra.

Vivid yellows partition scenes shared with
blues, reds and ancient greens, unlocking
sensations within you never knew

To truly understand the compass of depiction,
one must allow every representation to marinate
fully, collecting seasonings oftentimes misunderstood

The tales are those of healing, sacrifice and the purest
illustrations of love, pronounced to and for man.  Its methodical illuminations sparkle from apse to nave, the random
patterning of light’s voyage, in and through, should produce
A genuine sense of thanksgiving—an overwhelming awe steeped though, strongly, in uncontrollable feelings of guilt, for being, when so many others perish before their very appellations, ever truly get the opportunity to tickle the consciousness within

To get lost within such artistry, the mind can perturb the actualized experience—allowing deception to embrace the connotations, in what can only be contrived to be, nothing more than an entirety of observation, permutated by the rationalizing of pristine tenets of belief

Of all the many incarnations that have passed generationally, one would think the devout practitioner would have heard all the allegories, all the various possibilities of understanding, the fantastical meanings and messages—yet, tears stream through me, very much the same

In a way explanation will neither assist nor aide, calming the nerves of those ignorant to the internal processing beneath the eyes, therefore, allotting intuition to show how the spirit has taken hold of your earthbound frame—

Never considering, the salt flows mysteriously, for reasons I could never know—outside of perceiving, that somehow, someway, in shape and/or form, you, in such a realm of spiritual impact, have become the recipient, of what I’ve deemed to be, a conglomeration, of all that is wrong and right.  For what began chaste has grown soured, for what first piqued purity’s interest had also stoked melancholies unwavering flame, and in such moments, you cannot avert your glance from the painted windows masking the outer world askance—while the sermon stirs the air itself, and as the psalms then sing and thus possess the atmospheric verisimilitude—where even in such instances of innate tactility, you, and you alone, are living in a completely different state of being, saddened when elation should take hold your leash, leading you into an uplifting indoctrination of fullness and belief

But instead you remain, solely within the qualms of confine—where the world that enthralled you in, preserves your ignorance—as it creates an antithesis of living dream, an incongruity to replicate a balance amongst ballasts deep

Your tears collect in pools that do not dissolve with immediacy.  The then lost maze of disillusionment has since past, refraining from truly illuminating why in such grace you were presented with such a sad and mourning lapse—

It is here, that you return to the celebration’s living call—and by now being left alone, you understand why these portals of beauty, these windows to inner and outward poetry, could be referred to as ever being stained. 

Thursday, April 19, 2012

A Song for Immature Savants


Draconian devils in a pristine shell
amenable shills in a damning hell
predators and parasites
vagabonds to guttersnipes
adulators; sycophants
prime movers and those who can’t

Dressed up, candor in a scarf divine
red sails stir, cloaking past
the silicone and fiberglass
timing’s early, hours late,
pursing fourth’s, contracting fate
                                                      words sung with a torrid force
You want a story
open your eyes
you want drama
fight; survive
you want a hero
that I can’t provide

Mosaics and masquerades
promenades and palisades
chardonnay smiles and bourgeois tears
contemptible intentions reflecting fear
nesting cretin’s scar the pleat
(dilettantes (poor Faberge)) eggless and incomplete

Dressed down, guile to spine, slick corset veiling lines
black-toed, shin to heel, flaming skirt, striking fast
high slit thigh, low draped neck, a fire-flash
breaking down, broken in,
the radio’s deafening, silent din
                                             and we begin again

You want a story
open your eyes
you want drama
fight; survive
you want a hero
that I can’t provide

no, that is something
only you can breathe,
that is, if in yourself,
you choose to believe
  

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Insight buried in a box of dust


Relinquish power,
cede control,
abolish apprehension
of everything unknown.

Tension writhes in fear
It’s leaves wither in despair
over a coming cloud, that is
told to be of foreign origin, has been
foretold to bring the swirling whirls
of disruption and the wrenching
gusts of disturbance,

that distances the warmth above
away from the barren vacancy
existing below,

it provides a commonplace, one unlike
what most had ever grown accustomed
to seeing, to breathing in, something so strange
and wonderful, you ponder it’s meaning, and
amateurishly chart its probability of having been
created from heaven or heathen

and this borderline somehow
offers a tingling sense of desire,
a curiosity, an anticipation, an uncanny
combustion of fire—waylaid in its dormancy

while all the while impatience shrugs
it’s vengeful neck, from which the body heats
to an ungodly burn—painting thoughts, color
and emotion in an increasingly frantic harness
of terrible twos at thirty-eight, transforming
the pleasure of the new, into the jaded askew—

and so the grey floods the freeway with the oil upon a seemingly gentle feathered brush.

And so charcoal dances, always is, dancing in the distance, waiting for the dry-erase wipe of pleasure.  Anticipating conditioning will coil in the way it always does, and bleak ennui shall once again fill the ever-combative attention span of the what’s next to break societal view.

and it’s in this fledgling composition, where
wisdom could grow to be unlike anything
we had ever known.  But sadly, patience and savor
is not encoded within.

But the composition accumulates its dust-filled coat,
wearing it like a badge of honor, understanding it is
but a statement of the current time, knowing, knowing
that one day, a hand shall wipe clean the dusty frame,
and there, in that moment, these eyes will truly see,
the wonder and importance of what lies beneath.