Showing posts with label depressed. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depressed. Show all posts

Friday, March 25, 2011

The Readiness (and then She happened)

The Readiness was there, it was everywhere

Magnetic, is how she happened,
An alternating essence, evolving every layer,
Dissolving suicidal cravings,
I knew, there right then, God indeed has plans for men,
 Over built and destructive to the soul, the dilemma quite atrocious,
When the creator has cradled his project,
Would not assign responsibilities to his team,
Then when the funding cut,
He had his baby but not much of what he did,
The razor was vertical,
Inches from impact,
Sweat tore holes through once distinguished clothes,
Quivering, twitching, having the hardest time steadying,
Then the cavalry marched on in,
Sent his son and daughter away for the weekend,
Couldn’t let them be the first to see,
Yet it appears his son left behind a piece of him,
The phone which some believed attached to his hand,
Perhaps it was not the moment, he may return before they came,
So instead he would choose to deliver the phone to him,
Then alone he could be, with his deadliest intention,
But as you know, as you’ve been tipped off to,
The best laid plans often fall right through,
On the path back home,
His children’s faces, they way they presented themselves,
Right there, at that time,
It’s like they were cognizant in an unfathomable way,
Perhaps his melodramatic words gave him away,
Perhaps, but as you know things don’t end this way,
Roads of tar, one way out,
Due to construction, a different avenue back,
A street one block over,
Could have been in California,
All this time, each day since passed,
This feeling so close,
A smile crept upon his face,
Puffy thoughts could not escape,
Random stumbling of the words,
Music loud, if you knew him, you too would find it absurd,
But all of this had fine reason,
Shaking feet, sweaty hands,
Veins screaming for injection,
Injection of her again,
And so begins a tale we all thought was done,
Yet through some well timed twists of fate,
This man shall experience, a truly new, a reason to be,
He shall embark upon a brand new second life, a season filled only with varying speeds

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Just Not Taking It All In

Been living, in a land of disinformation,
I live in a world nobody understands,
Labels pasted from snap judgments made,
The ignorant can’t keep up,
Each ripple spurred,
The repercussions from this all,

Tiny Flaws,
Leave big scars,
After all,
Even kittens have claws,

Beneath the dangling metaphor
Within the past participle
I see the market stork
And steam away, steam away
Tomorrows another day,
Another opportunity,
To gamble, to drink,
To watch the venom disseminate,

Orange profits will funnel in,
Through a teeny tiny cosmic crinkle
An hourglass of instigators,
Shadow baggers in their foil,
Trade wagers on the dial,
Masking tape above the wire,
Formulaic decompression,
Along with self-prescribed medicinal vacations
The only reprieves,
From drowning in the quagmire,
The dysfunction from depression brings

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Don't Judge a Princess by the Gown

Yellow blankets of crisp together
Driving sheets of white weather
Alone, adrift in a sleepy storm
Mush

Fly into the eye
Swinging wrecking ball
To pendulum flow
Momentum gained
A renewal for, forsaken vows

Raspberry, oleander fields of clay
Sawdust graffiti is on its way
Smocks of justice, passion play
Sway young fledgling,
Sway to the rhythm,
The sound within
Becomes the sound without

Prim, proper, pristine frown
Severed soul in a peach sleeveless gown
Sparkles and glitter, charms and stitch
Ticker tape parade for our darling,
Smiling face, teeth white
A frowning chasm juxtaposed