Showing posts with label low self opinion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label low self opinion. Show all posts

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Darkened Panes




It’s the scar tissue type
         of hope,
the kind that’s
drawn too far past—
 the frayed lines
of sympathetic appeal—
          
It’s the moistened blanket
twice applied to feverish brows—
molested by dampening tears
escaping their shadow’s cell

It’s the weathered apparel
hesitantly breathing
yet often lacking the design
of symmetry—
dividing the pangs of ulcers deep;
         below the crested veil, yet well above
         the coded resolve—

It’s these battles
waged in a cuneiform of turmoil
amongst the bridging gaps of confused allegiance—
where cultural dignity is pitted so squarely
against the necessities of economy

It’s the imposter behind the curtain
in the back room with the purposefully darkened
panes of glass


                  “Not the one where…”
“Yes, that’s the one…
         where good mothers and fathers alike,
         tell tales of exaggerated consequence
before applying the forehead’s midnight kiss goodnight”

It’s these stories
that can make one wonder what exactly was seen
to prompt such tales, that are remembered all too easily
was it an unnatural gleam—
or a bothersome tic—that
marred the desired fabric of their creations frequency
It’s the words of a storyteller, relaying:
warnings—
             as subtle overtures of persuasion,
                                    unintended to incite implication,  
yet performed, in such a way,
where a tad too little premonition,
is weighed upon, as to how
  potential seeds
already have been,
inadvertently delivered somehow—
never considering the fragility of
         a child’s mind, where fractured
and faulty filters have yet been taught

It’s these moments
of self-revelation
that act as epiphanies—
          as warnings
of what could be,
if we,
choose not to act
accordingly

It’s these memories
         that we remember all too well,
as we sit
patiently behind
our darkened
         panes of glass

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Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Forlorn and Facing Reconfiguration


I withdrew my efforts months before months before
I am blank canvas, abandoned like the empty mine—still 
possessing gold; seemingly, knowledge only I care to know

dust settles and design forms an abstractive patterning—yet, all assurances I can now provide are but trivial, unintentional; only residue, coincidentally shed upon, what once was the bark of pine

I rescinded perseverance, long before long seemed forever far
I am the rusted chain; I am the captive’s scar—so antiquated, a reminder of a past so effortlessly shunned away

dampness stirs alive the cloth—a cloth cares not for futures, of consequence or repercussion; it only does what you ask it to, be that wiping fresh a dirtied slate or offering moisture to an arid face.

I disassembled my entirety, part before piece before part and piece
I am mechanical; calculative—dividing out the old and worn, a sum of parts infused as new, fully aware, some slivers can never be removed.


  

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Aerosol in the AM

precipitation
moist with beads
of dewdrop and
dragon's tongue.

Flesh peeled. skinned fine
smooth and worthy of a
private show.

Torture.
Standing still
Mouth, parched
yet hands bound
inches from the
liquid mask.

The scene is painted in that certain way
where everyone gets the jive
except for the one guy in the corner
yelling, "what's that mean"

Critics.
Torturous depreciative machines.
Always ink-blotting their way &
when they find it, they distort
the path with 3 x 5 lined cards,
each with individual messages scribbled upon,
With obscure notes such as "nancy" or "Jabba"
Critics
obviously looking to get lost
But where?
In what?

Then.  Well then. There are the chameleons.
Shifting lips, eyes, postures.  Tossing about
frost tipped and aerosoled roots.  To find that perfect match
of bicep bulge, eyelash ratio, pouty-ness of puffy lower lip, neck stretched, back arched.  Polarizing figurines of the self.

Mirrors
They get me every time.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Heretical

Her essay appealed to me,
In a deep and frightening manner,
Half in the bag and looking up
Shaking rust off the boardroom floor,
Nervous like a man possessed
Cuticle and broken nail
Residuals in this corridor,

Hearsay infects me
I take it all too heart
Doesn’t matter, I don’t care,
I say these things but I’m a liar
And life’s not fair,
The next day when the lasts not hear,
Stupid boy, screaming and screaming
Decibels rising much too high,
Lord let this end, deafen my ears

Beard dripping water wet
Eyes propped open
Into the reflecting glass,
Time stopping as daylight runs,
Muttering again and again
What am I going to do with you?
Heresy seems to be here to stay