Saturday, April 6, 2013

An In-exact Rendition of Analgesics Induced By Ill-Conceived Variations of What Once Was So Fondly Known as Histrionics


Vexing winter, culpable, equally
In each her ghastly appellations,
Pronounceable or not—

To annunciate, if but for a solitary syllabic
Representation, regardless of key, you are to
Feel, what flames writhe through her internally—

Slack-jawed, amazed, yet mainly from fear, each
Observation allowed, becomes a memory ruefully
Spent, in depreciative dissolve and disillusionment—

To witness is to feel, the snarling hooks paring clean
The canvas from its frame…watching as the paint, is apportioned randomly—stylistically similar, yet confusion, also has made and continuously makes such claims consistently…

In a manner of speaking, a cloud exhausts the oxygen, as the last breaths befriend an approaching maiden sent from afar, where her beauty alters, in waves, toggling between, asymmetric recollections, abused by a deepening lust, ignorant of just how representative grow the scars…

Hallucinatory amplification contorts the demonic vice grip that strangulation bestows upon the parted cleft of lost worlds reunited in forced mergers and therein reuniting the fallen with the spawn of Adam…

And in those first few unmeasured moments, to where the end began a sequence—one that illustrated the birth of abhorrence, and just how quickly a kingdom of infernality, could be created in such a place, as the most unbecoming of southern stalls.

Shivering…yet cold is not understood…

Enflamed and razed, but the coals are like rocks placed beneath a rill so quaint…

The shapes and forms would’ve continued their skew upon perception, if not for the blissful accompaniments, of which the heavens shawled down to comfort thee,

Guarded, even the worst of us garner the sympathy from family, even those we’ve shunned aside, turning our backs upon…for no father wishes, nor can bear to watch such depths of pain and suffering blanketed unkindly over the eternality of kin…

Such incoherent byproducts of this unsettled estate, a placement or tomb of state, which is that thing, so far removed from the vocabularies of what most, hopefully, can truthfully comprehend…

And when the worms covet what remains, you’d have been long since removed, and we will have then, long since parted ways…

Floating ethereally above, the vision grows smaller, losing its impactful proximity with each fluttering ascent of your downy-feathered heroines and apathetically devouring elves…

Yet still, you are encouraged to keep watching…for it is known, that only sentiments of unconcerned psychologies will confront you therein…as angels escort you to that place above, way beyond and far away from the defilements that ever so persistently remain determined to singe and sear any and all incoherent melody relegated to distaste, pain and all things wished invisibly felt…

And then…the shame of what once was, becomes again…a relic, a history untethered…bound no more, by the shell that for so long had bore your name…


Friday, April 5, 2013

Questions From A Room That We Believed To Be Off-Camera


I go through shifts…
…Actually they’re more like swerves…
Moods fluctuate from serenity and stability
To paranoia and indignity

I fly above the choral reefs…
Always pausing briefly to hear the
Chime of their inscribed song…

In such a moment, at such a place…
I wonder, I dwell…and am sent afar…to some invisible place

Can one reverse that which has already occurred?
Can he will the fates away, insist they gouge out a path for some other frayed child of abandon?
Is destiny designed, truly, with unrelenting accuracy…if so,
Then how can we be expected to change?

Perhaps this is all but a game…
Where we each have a specialized role to play,
Some grand performance, meant to entertain some
Ancient and alien breed…

If such is so…. then why, did I accept such a character to play…or did I ever truly have a say?

It often feels as if every movement we make were never our own to begin with.  The mood adjusts to the highs, and then again, of course, to the lows…

When we curse and scream, (awake), riddled by sweat created in dream…

Basking in the afterglow, of some impossible moon, is it any wonder why we question each and every rule, all in order to find the answer to the reasoning to why nothing has yet to donate to us a shine of any kind.

It’s the brightest part of growing, trying to locate those beams of gold.

Are we all slated into each our own positions? We are taught to believe, to strive and aim.  We are told that we can be and do whatever it is we want or need, yet, why then do we settle for what little it is that we do…and why do many simply concede without questioning, giving away every desire, forfeiting all the answers to all those questions we never did think to pose…

Why then, I would really like to know?

Is there even a case to be made…. should we even create goals and believe that we can achieve what the heart’s mind pines to grow?

Or are we but pawns and kings of a different sport…where in this game, we exist entirely on our own. A contest without referees, where the rules are made up on the fly, ones that must be obeyed to a set of guidelines that seem to do nothing but only ever change before we even get a chance to learn the ones that have since grown passé?

And, is it just me, feeling like I’m the only one to recognize this anarchistic state?  Is it in my mind alone, believing that what is supposed to be fun, is anything but?  Do others begin to find that even pretending weighs one’s person down eventually?  Again, I’d really like to know.
…
Is this all there is?
Could it be?
Is this…is it, as it appears to be?
…
Have we all truly been played for patsies, even when the playing field is squarely cemented in between the most precious parts of our individualistic minds?
…
Is it true, have we all been masterfully deceived?
…
And can it be possible, that we’re the ones that invited these devious opponents into our lives? 
…
And did we really do so, with a handshake and a smile?
… 
Oh, wouldn’t that just be sublime?
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Thursday, April 4, 2013

Tagged, Forgiven & Ignored


Colored folder
Red painted manila
Black ink pen labeled
With a brushstroke beyond
Any symbol cursive’s ever gleamed

Bright quick burst willed it’s way upon the
White stucco ceiling sky,
Determined
Forgotten
Reminded
It’s all right to feel…

Blank stare
Bloodshot flavored eye
Reanimated distinctly
With a faded yet still brilliant
Darkened blur of what once
Offered a quick distraction
To an all too often disconnected
Remnant of some other placement
Of times misrepresented.



Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Minister Of Self-Defense


A Minister of Self-Defense

Cruel purveyor of corrupted souls, Why is downfall so lurid?
Interpreting Brahman through such vicious prose—these are the decrepit plans of an oft frayed rage.  Depiction blurs.

THE HOURGLASS IS BROKEN. THE SENTRY’S BEEN SHOT!

A dance such as the insidious corralling of unwilling minions from the comforting confines of distends—subhuman refugees and salesmen, each the politician, taking care of tears denied.

FRACTURED SPLINTER. GLASS—A SHATTERED PANE!

Unfortunate fates seeping wayward, an origin, sleepwalking past the gates of guardians, withering from their endless dreams—unfulfilled—clenching, to a lifetime of faded frames.

THE MENTOR’S LEFT FOREVER. ALONE, TIDES EBB FAR!

Clustered beyond forgiveness, into a tightly knit yet poorly ventilated space of claim. Our imprisonment is based on passion; our companions addle words dimly etched to crypt.

BOOKS ARE MISPLACED. VINEGAR’S ONLY CHILD!

Macabre spirits spy shanties not meant for mortal eyes—
Words lose translation, as beats grow too frequent to count—
Despair is but a punctuation of the marks hate’s strewn about

FEAR HONORS NOTHING. CANDLES FORKED, WAX BENT!

If not for our own mirrors, the ones we peer into to understand, we would go unnoticed, blending in, to this, a sarcophagus otherwise revered of as the Promised Land.

A CRINGE BLEEDS MONTHLY. A VOW—an ONLY FRIEND!

Knifepoint. Finely tuned, hilt to blade. Ribbed to gleam. Jagged, sleek. Reflecting upon each tomorrow never seen.  The eyes of dawn approach while frozen knuckles creak.

OPPOSITION. INCHING TOWARD this Underbelly’s Seam…

A Minister of Self-Offense, on the defensive once again…

Well, wasn't sure I'd find the time to write a normal length piece, but this one sort of came to me, so here it is.  And I can think of no better place in the world in which to share it with, then with my friends over at D'Verse for their outstanding Open Link Night.  Stop on by and get full on some amazing poetry.

Ode To Anonymous

I never fathomed
just how much anonymous
enjoyed poetry
but after seeing his words
in such disjointed pleasure

Now I understand
how inanity can boast
such random wishes
so much so that nervousness
prevents his naming rights